Gibberish (I LIVE IN AN EMOTIONAL NO MAN'S LAND!!!)

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I live in an emotional no man's land!!! Outwardly, it seems everybody owns me. Parents say that I'm their daughter and I was born and brought up there at their place. In-laws say that I'm all theirs now and they are my second parents. My life is there and my progeny will flourish there at their place. They even assure that I have every right to ask anything I want. 

I was so happy thinking that I got two parents to love me and own me. Yesterday I was at my mom's place. When I was about to lift a pitcher full of water, my mom said, "Be careful. If you trip down, we have to answer your in-laws." 

Today, back in my in-laws' house, this morning I was heating a pot full of water. When I was about to transfer it to a bucket, I heard my dad-in-law saying, "let it be. We shall do that for you. If it spills, we have to answer your parents." 

It was epiphanic! I realised a bitter truth— let it be my parents or in-laws, they care for me but don't own me; neither do I. No matter how much they love me, for them I'll ever remain someone else's belonging. My mind asked me, "If they remain answerable to each other whom should I think as mine?

I was bewildered. Who owns me? Is there anyone who can simply own me as theirs without thinking about others?

Here I'm.... Caught in the emotional noman's land, hoping that one day I will find someone who will own me. Because how can love be complete without owning one another(despite shortcomings)?



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Comments

  1. ThenmozhiJuly 15, 2023 at 10:40 AM

    Hi maha. It is interesting to read this. When we read, we may laugh because you have written in a very humorous way,eventhough you felt it bad.
    In my point of view, we need not to be some others belonging. But unfortunately we used to be like that only. 😕
    Love is the only thing that can be shared, that can be owned (to some extend). But the feelings,confusions etc.,etc. You have explored is the thing of all newly married girls.
    But the real fact is you will , sorry all the girls will become a person who owns their in-laws family, as well as their counterpart very soon and the cycle will go on...
    So enjoy the days... Everything will change.
    JUST GO WITH THE FLOW...🤩

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